Recently, I found that my faith was challenged. I know God. I trust God. I believe God and will never leave God. But what is Buddhism or the Kabala? Why are there principles taught in other religions that bring peace and power to your life in ways many of us have yet to see in our lives? Oh, I'm not converting to anything. If anything I am un-converting...

You see, it isn't enough for me to just be saved and have stuff and live each day on a treadmill of life. I believe in a higher self and I believe in a greater self. I believe in a oneness with God that brings us into the Light and the Light into us.

Tonight, I had to let go and release. I had to release tradition, denomination, doctrine and religion. They all failed me miserably. The corruption, deceit, cowardice and manipulation of our leaders was once and for all too heavy of a burden for me to carry. I am not at all in denial.

"Come out from among them and be ye separate."

Straight is the gate and narrow is the way...few walk therein.

I need to be one of those few. I needed to come out from among them because God has a higher calling. A calling that permits you to walk in his promise, his authority, his power and his might. For real...not just theoretically. Not just as a form of godliness. The courage and power to walk and do the right thing even if it is not easy or popular. And by right, I don't mean "not drink" when every one else is drinkng on the job. I mean when evil arises and causes harm to the lives and souls of others, taking a stand and proclaiming that righteousness must prevail.

That isn't an easy thing when the church rises against you and strives with you to be silent. It isn't an easy thing when no one stands with you because they are afraid they will lose their popularity. It isn't an easy thing to see those who are suppose to have so much power and clout, shrink with their tails between their legs like little runts in a pack of dogs.

It isn't easy to do what God would have you to do when every one else is far to scared to do the right thing with you. But it is the only thing that you can do And it is what has to be done. It is the best thing to do. It is something that God will strengthen you through.

"Must Jesus bear the cross alone and all the world go free?" What an honor to partake in the sufferings of Jesus Christ. What an honor it is to be persecuted for righteousness sake. What an honor it is to be counted worthy of this fiery trial. I stand alone for righteousness sake but I am not alone. What a privilege it is to be lied on and scorned because you won't bow to Baal. If God be for me, it is more than the world against me.

I cried a lot tonight and then.... I said "yes Lord, your servant hears you." I will walk in this covenant that permits me to exist in the light and power of God almighty. There is no failure, no fear, no worry, no defeat, no confusion, no weakness and no doubt in the light and power of God. Everything I live and do or say and be is carefully designed and intended. And the peace God rules in my heart.

I guess this day had to come to those who really seek God. And it is an honor to know that God said to my adversary the devil "have you considered my servant, Kimberly?" We all know how that story ends.

I pray for my enemies. I pray for those in position who do not have the courage or power to stand for righteousness. I pray that the glory of God be revealed and that my experience will be light and strength and even deliverance to someone who will travel this path.

If you really want to experience the power and might of the light of God in everything you do or say, you will have to experience that very painful separation from tradition and religion because God is not religious at all. He is God, the creator of the ends of the earth.

God is often found in the quietness of a mountain or the roar of a sea. And sometimes is standing right there next to you over your shoulder waiting for you to receive.

Thank you for letting me think aloud tonight…. I guess I will go to sleep now.